Shadow selves

This edition of Griffith Review considers all kinds of loss (and a few notable instances of its inverse). Losing something, of course, doesn’t have to
connote pain or strife: some of the essays and stories in this collection view loss as a beginning rather than an end, a shucking off of old selves or a reappraisal of old habits and ideas.

Slapton Sands

You’ll also find a Sherman tank overlooking the water. Stay with me.
Slapton Sands is not that easy to get to if you don’t have a car – the nearest railway station is Totnes, a three-hour train ride from London, and from there it’s a bus to Kingsbridge and another to the Sands. When you arrive, you’ll find that the beach is actually made of pebbles, but that’s not important right now.

You’ll also find a Sherman tank overlooking the water. Stay with me.

Slapton Sands is not that easy to get to if you don’t have a car – the nearest railway station is Totnes, a three-hour train ride from London, and from there it’s a bus to Kingsbridge and another to the Sands. When you arrive, you’ll find that the beach is actually made of pebbles, but that’s not important right now.

You’ll also find a Sherman tank overlooking the water. Stay with me.ON THE SOUTH coast of the United Kingdom, in the county of Devon, there’s a triangular sprawl of land that juts out into the English Channel. At its southern tip lies the wealthy sailing town of Salcombe, where a latte costs as much as it does in Shoreditch, and in peak season you’ll queue down the cobbled street for half an hour to get it. Approximately thirty miles up the coastline, there is one of Devon’s most deprived conurbations, Torquay, which sits at the heart of an area known without irony as ‘the English Riviera’. Halfway between the two is Slapton Sands.

Slapton Sands is not that easy to get to if you don’t have a car – the nearest railway station is Totnes, a three-hour train ride from London, and from there it’s a bus to Kingsbridge and another to the Sands. When you arrive, you’ll find that the beach is actually made of pebbles, but that’s not important right now.

You’ll also find a Sherman tank overlooking the water. Stay with me.

Gut feeling

A little while later, the judge leans her head on her hand and says, Mr Brain, were you touching their breasts as part of your Christianity, or were you just touching their breasts? 

I sit up straighter, as though ready to stand for the first hymn. 

Mirror, mirror

I have lost my face. This is not a metaphor; I no longer recognise myself in mirrors. I know the facts: I’m wearing the face I’ve always worn, the same muscle, the same scaffolding of bone – but recognition is a different order of knowing. My sense of kinship is gone. I stare and a stranger stares back. 

Bad teeth

I have my own serious questions: what’s the truth about teeth? Teeth can be a vessel for so many things we want to believe in – whether those things are lies (imaginative or otherwise) or the truth is irrelevant. Teeth can go from magical to mundane in an instant. From beautiful to ugly, from correct to wrong and back again.

Herbert or Harry?

While living creatures also die, go extinct and at times evolve into something else entirely – just as the built environment eventually disappears – it seems a stretch to suggest that the significance of other creatures depends only on our relationship to them – on what they provide for us, whether as resources or a source of personal awe and emotional resilience.

Mourning in a time of planetary crisis

As species disappear and climate change accelerates, a small but growing group of activists, artists and writers across the world is embracing mourning as transformative ethical and political work. Their approaches are wide-ranging, from public funerals and vigils for departed species to acts of civil disobedience that take the form of mass ‘die-ins’ representing the extinction crisis.

Bucket of water

When clients were brought to Australia, they were held in hotels or detention centres. Detainees were allowed to see external psychologists in visiting rooms in the detention centres. The rooms were stark and grey with bright, white lighting. I filled out an online application form to visit one of my clients. It asked me to list the items I wanted to bring with me, and how I intended to use each of them.

Old feelings, new appetites

Suddenly, my body was allowed to be big, weary, bed-bound and gorged. It was to eat readily, rest gladly, leak chaotically and swell without objection. For close to ten months, it was to be spared anorexia’s vicious rules. As I approached the end of my body’s heavy sabbatical, I felt nervous.

The knitting

The spores that caught and coupled. The filaments that grew, the hyphae that became the sum of our parts. All of it powered by water, powered by oxygen, powered by sugars, nutrients, deaths, resulting in bodies rotting in the ground. We spread out, touching the soft new roots of trees, entering them. Connecting them. A knitting. 

Blaming the pastries

Contemporary life constantly offers us the illusion of control – many of us can access whatever we want whenever we want it at the click of a button. In reality, though, we lack control over so many elements of our lives. Since it can be painful to think about that, we make ourselves forget.

From the new world

The first time I played Dvorak’s New World Symphony, I couldn’t believe the sheer power of inked shapes on paper. Breathing into the first note with eighty other musicians; the swelling fortississimo crescendos of pure angst; traversing stories inspired by communities borne from diaspora and unbelonging. Nothing I’d ever done had felt so real.  

Final five days

We sent Red off to school on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday – but we had to ask him to say farewell, to be ready for her absence, just in case. Every day. To bid your dying sister goodbye, each morning, and then go into the arms of your friends – who didn’t know.

Encircling the flames

I was seventeen. I didn’t own a passport. I’d never been on a plane. The extent of my ‘cultural exchange’ was one Toorak party where, reciting Hamlet’s first soliloquy, I tried to woo the private schoolgirls before they realised ‘this too too solid flesh’ belonged out near Dandenong.

Australia’s lost literary sector

As I’m writing this essay, at the start of 2026, nearly every arts, cultural and literary organisation in Australia is in some sort of trouble – whether at the hard-but-ticking-along-if-everything-stays-equal end of the scale or the other extreme: a not-sure-how-long-we-can-keep-going-like-this existential crisis.

As a case in point, the last few years have revealed the shocking frailty of Australia’s literary sector. In Victoria, for example, in December last year, dozens of literary journals, training and development organisations, festivals and prizes were told they’d lost multi-year state government funding – not only making a significant number of literary organisations unsustainable (and potentially unsalvageable) but also risking the state’s reputation as home to Australia’s first UNESCO City of Literature (Naarm/Melbourne) and only Booktown (Clunes).

But literature has always been the sector’s poorly funded cousin. These may be hard times, but things have always been hard. In a sector accustomed to deprivation, deprioritisation and crisis, why does the current state of Australia’s literary sector feel so different?

The limits of authenticity

It was as though the genuine bid towards a more inclusive literary culture had led to the commodification of identity instead. It became clear that any broader interest in identity withered beyond the initial question of representation; I discovered I’d been naively unprepared for what adopting the term ‘Asian Australian writer’ meant.

Little gifts of flowers

Almost immediately after completing a draft of my novel, I become preoccupied with a letter housed in the National Library of Australia. The 1930s correspondence between the English and American publishers of an Australian novelist concerns their decision to reject that author’s most recent manuscript – so, of course, that’s where my thoughts fixate, yesterday’s triumph already faded to mocking echo

The creative arts in a time of fragmentation

‘A time of fragmentation’ is a phrase that describes a period in which profoundly different world views jostle for dominance, and the destructive capacities of human beings threaten to do their worst. It isn’t just that public opinion is polarised. There’s a centrifugal quality to everyday life that makes it feel as if it’s being ripped apart.

A moment of wonder

When Elizabeth Blackburn became Australia’s first female Nobel Laureate in 2009, the media focused not on her research but on the ‘challenges’ she reportedly faced as a woman in science. Her journey was not dissimilar to mine – she had supportive parents and teachers as well as champions at work who helped her focus her passion – so there are clearly other factors at play here.

The lists

I want to hold her. She doesn’t know it yet, but her world is about to change. Yes, all the things happening at home are bad and it’s an open secret throughout town, but she doesn’t know how much further she has to fall.

Endless summer

In a perfect world, every season would be summer – a time of seemingly endless promise. At least, that’s how I remember the summers of my youth: freedom from the confines of school or university, with nothing but lengthy, sun-filled days of play and pleasure. As pleasing as the nostalgic image is, I know it isn’t true.

There’s something wrong

Almost twenty years ago, before I left my parents’ house – my home, my country, my continent – to adventure into a new world, I did the maths. If I visited my parents every week for the rest of their lives, I might be able to spend another year with them.

A liability

THE JOURNALIST IS calling again. I don’t know how he got my number. I suppose it couldn’t have been that hard. My whole life, people have been selling me out to get their two cents in the paper. It seems to happen in cycles. Every...

Venerable

WHEN WE PULL up outside the block, she is waiting in her best grey skirt and pearl-pink blouse with a patent-leather handbag dangling from her left hand. I usually get out to help her into the passenger seat, opening the door and holding her...

Walking Upside-down Country

life, habitat & ruin / run recombinant // & helical in hurt forms / that keep life going & do / not heal – ‘Clear Water Renga’, Brian Teare morning draws us out  sensing an unsteadied life can only lose and find  itself within this habitat which is...

Mushrooms

In the dark, out of damp black loam, they’ve sprung back in their bonnets and straw hats. Pale arms dusted by the moon. Pale faces without weariness. ‘Explain yourself,’ my grandmother once said to me, hands on her hips. ‘You think you can explain it all away?’ said my grandfather, disgusted. And my mother’s...

A Million Eyes

for Eileen Chong The story has been told over and over: Saigon crossed out on maps in crimson ink, its refugees pleading their way across the sea, arriving at the white closed door of the cliff shore. Saigon was burning. The atlas had crumbled into ashes. At mansion thresholds, voices...