The octopus within

Discovering the creatures inside

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  • Published 20240507
  • ISBN: 978-1-922212-95-5
  • Extent: 203pp
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THERE ARE SMALL things that have changed since I was told I have cancer.

My mother, with whom I’m very close but in a non-­sentimental kind of way, has started to send me emojis in her text messages – something she’s never done before. She’s not an effusive, emoji-­using person, and I like and admire that about her. The expanding pink hearts at the end of her messages feel out of place. She has also started to text things like You have a beautiful smile in response to photos I’ve sent her – again, completely out of character, and worrying because to behave out of character means that something has happened to knock you out of yourself.

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Ceridwen Dovey

Ceridwen Dovey is the author of several books of fiction and non-fiction, including Only the Animals (2014), On JM Coetzee: Writers on Writers (2018)...

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